Capturing Few Fleeting Emotions from Roy’s life

Date :- 3rd October 2018, 00:00 

As the clock strikes the last second of the day, the memories of my childhood are being locked up inside a safe box that will be placed back on the shelves of my heart. The night seeps now into the upcoming dawn of the next day as the warm midnight breeze is kissing away the tears that make it ways through the rugged rough skin of mine. I am an uncanny emotional soul. I can hide away my feelings as if they don’t exist. I can pull myself away in the shadows of the room if felt unwanted. I can mask my emotions if fail to find a worthy listener. And then in the solitude of my thoughts, I find my words giving me company as one true friend who bridges the passage to release the bottled up storm of feelings by veiling into small stories or poems.

I am quite nostalgic tonight since today is the birthday of the closest person that I had in my life- Gigi – my Aunt…my Godmother. It has been almost six years since I lost her to stars yet she has a special place in my thoughts. Whenever, I think of her, this childish heart melts away into the memories of her hug. I wish she could have been today with me when I am mature enough to respect her love and care and not a child that pestered her with my wishes…when I can also buy her gifts without always receiving them…when I can make her feel special and say out loud that no matter what I do, her affection will always seem a fathomless haven in front of my efforts…that her love will always guide me to be a better human…that never a day pass by when I don’t think of her…that

“Gigi…I love you so much…I always will…I miss you so much…I always will”

We think we have all the time in the world for our loved ones. We forget that time is just an illusion and no matter how much we get it, it will never be enough. And now I wish I could talk about so many things with her…to take her to her favorite places…to treat her in a big restaurant with my first salary…to hug her when I feel scared and lonely…to eat again those delicious dishes cooked by her…to wipe her tears and be her little hero…yet forever is never enough and now I am left with is her smile…

This life is what I dedicate to you…these words are what I keep before you..may this warm breeze take them to you with my limitless love and pain…

I hope you remain immortal always in my words…lost to stars…

by Roy

(These feelings depicted are beyond rationale and so it is advised to read with a compassionate heart)