From the pages of Dee Kay’s life
Date :- 17th September 2018, 07:17 PM
It has been quite an exhaustive day for me. It wasn’t a physically exhaustive day but rather a mental one. I have been drifting from Indian to American Time zone as my sleeping pattern goes into hyper-drive. I either don’t sleep for 24-36 hours or I am sleeping for 8-10 hours. This is causing a lot of mental stress as I wake up being tried and feel that constant urge to sleep as my body’s natural clock is completely and utterly messed up. I need to take control of this so I will start my morning routine and stick to it with utmost sincerity.
I wrote couple of pages for our upcoming book but I ended up deleting everything that I wrote as I wasn’t happy with the end product for that chapter. The first draft wasn’t anywhere near the final drafts of any previous chapters. Maybe it was due to the mental exhaustion. I have started noticing that I often forget a lot of things due to being absent minded at times or cause my mind is wandering in its own imagination. I guess I need to start creating a healthy lifestyle as the red flags are been seen more than often.
I want to write more but my mood swings are causing some issues so I guess I will have to force myself to sit down to intercept the underlying cause of this. I know it won’t be easy for me as I had been expecting more from myself. I love myself enough to be brutally honest with myself even though I know this will somewhat hurt my feelings but at the same time I need to hard on self to achieve the goals that NEED TO TURN INTO REALITY.
I will sit down tomorrow and complete the next chapter even if I am not in the mood. I will push myself to the limits again. There is no excuses or replacements for hardwork. I need to give 110% whereas at the moment I am not even giving my 50. I try to be honest to my words and stand by them so I know I need to do better, way better. I will not fail this time. I will not bring disgrace to myself. I will not give up on me.
Roy is doing good as his confidential work is going on at a good pace even though some issues rose but he was able to overcome them even though he did panic but that’s perfectly normal reaction. I am sure he would soon get the good news and will make the official announcement (please ladies, don’t worry he’s not getting married, YET).
Amrita is doing great and doing everything to stay fit. She has been running, has been reading, and has been working on the blog. She is pretty good at everything she puts her heart too. Plus she is beauty with brain, a perfect combination. Though I think Roy & I have been a bad influence on her as we have incarnated few of our ideology into her. Now, even she can not bear the idiotic things that people say when they try to pursue someone. She is becoming the female version of us. We are corrupting her soul (devilish laughs)
Everything else seems fine. Family doing great. Car needs washing and servicing so maybe in the coming days I will take the sweet ride to the service center for its routine maintenance, the house needs some grocery shopping so I will have to make some time out, and of course push myself to achieve the best version of me.
I guess that’s it for today.
So this Dee Kay singing off.
(These are the personal views and daily life occurrences of the writer. Please read them with an open mind.)